Being Alive

I'm having this longing I can't figure out

Longing for something lasting, in a way

or...

I know what it is, but I have promised myself to surpress it.

I can not fall for it again.

I will not be stupid, act like a maniac, let some stupid emotions confuse me and make me disturbed!

Somebody hold me too close, somebody hurt me too deep.

Somebody sit in my chair and ruin my sleep, and make me aware of being alive.

Being Alive!